Bill at his 90th birthday party
Today at 11:00 a.m. we will be celebrating the life of my father, Bill, who passed away on July 9, 2010. He would have turned 93 on the 15th of July. He lived a long and very good life.
He once was interviewed and said, "I married the girl of my dreams. We had three wonderful children and four beautiful grandchildren. Who could ask for anything more?"
My daughter Aria is the oldest of his grandchildren. Sadly she will not be able to attend the memorial service as she lives far away in Italy. She was able to see her grandfather in the hospital a few weeks ago, shortly before he passed away. Aria said her goodbyes to him at that time. She has asked me to read the following letter at the service today:
Grandpa Bill
I am writing this message in the midst of Florence’s hottest month. After an unusually long and rainy spring and then a sudden shock of heat that fell like a blanket over the entire city, all of my plants have died and we have just planted new bulbs. Each morning the sharp green stems poke a little further out of the soil, and I am almost glad to have once again chosen an annual rather than a perennial. There is something to be said for witnessing the entire lifespan of your flowers. As in my little garden, where life and death occur on a somewhat less unwieldy scale, I go back to my roots, the roots of my memories. I find that some have stretched and twisted, some have flowered while others have withered, like the paths I did or did not choose to take. There are many branches I could trace to find my way back to the strong, quiet man who was my Grandpa Bill. I am sad to have lost another flower, but happy for the roots that remain and to which I owe so many parts of my character.
Here is just one of those branches: I’m sitting cross-legged at a long glass coffee table. I am four or five years old. I’ve already completed the ritual steps that go along with being baby-sat by my grandparents, such as rubbing the belly of the Buddha and making a wish, and now I am coloring in one of the Japanese workbooks Grandpa Bill had found somewhere for me. In his nearly century-long lifetime and the not-quite three decades of which I was able to be a part of it, he never told me in so many words that he hoped I would learn Japanese, but every now and then he would take out the workbook and we would sit for as long as my four-year-old attention span lasted and I would repeat the words after him.
“Hana.” (grandpa pointing to his nose)
“Hannah?”(my response)
“Kuchi.” (grandpa pointing to his mouth)
“Coochie?!” (Me giggling)
“Mimi”(grandpa pulling on his ear)
“Me, me!”. (me gesturing to myself)
And the lesson would end when I would grow bored or burst into giggles and affirm, “Watashi wa enpitsu”—I am a pencil.
What is the weight behind three generations, two continents and a coloring book? How many truths and histories pass through our hands like so much water? Abundant, transparent and restorative, a grandparent’s love and knowledge could save our lives if only we paid more attention to it, drinking it down and absorbing it instead of splashing around in what seems like an endless resource that will never run out. But I can only be grateful for those things that I was able to learn from Grandpa during his lifetime. Most of all: Patience.
When you’re hoping or waiting with impatience, a single day can seem like a thousand years. Einstein joked about this in his playful explanation of relativity, saying that an hour with a pretty girl seemed like a minute, while unpleasant situations that last for a minute can feel like an hour. The Japanese say, ichi nichi senshÅ«, implying that a single day lived with impatience feels like a thousand autumns. If Grandpa ever lost his patience, he certainly never showed it. His patience was an art, and I mean that literally. From his lovely Bunka embroideries to his delicate origami cigarette wrapper umbrellas, to the soda-can wind chimes that decorated their yard, every aspect of Grandpa’s personality evinced his gift for accepting time for what it was, never hurrying it along, never challenging its pace, never wasting a moment. My grandfather waited a long time to marry my grandmother—a box of love letters from his time at Fort Sam Houston serves as a reminder of this. And after fifty years of marriage, she once urged him at the dinner table to repeat what he had said to her one morning. “Bill, tell them what you said to me this morning”. And, in his quiet way as always, he very calmly said, “Oh, you know, I just said, ‘Every day I love you more.’”
Grandpa has again waited with patience and grace to be reunited with the person he continued to love more and more throughout his life. If to him, each minute that he has waited has felt like an hour, or each day a thousand autumns, he never let on to this. He held onto life with strength, kindness, love, and a wonderful sense of humor until the very end, but I know that he was, again as so many years ago, waiting for the day when Grandma would take his hand.
As for us, I’m sorry that our garden has one less flower but rest at ease knowing that our sky is lit by one more star.
He once was interviewed and said, "I married the girl of my dreams. We had three wonderful children and four beautiful grandchildren. Who could ask for anything more?"
My daughter Aria is the oldest of his grandchildren. Sadly she will not be able to attend the memorial service as she lives far away in Italy. She was able to see her grandfather in the hospital a few weeks ago, shortly before he passed away. Aria said her goodbyes to him at that time. She has asked me to read the following letter at the service today:
Grandpa Bill
I am writing this message in the midst of Florence’s hottest month. After an unusually long and rainy spring and then a sudden shock of heat that fell like a blanket over the entire city, all of my plants have died and we have just planted new bulbs. Each morning the sharp green stems poke a little further out of the soil, and I am almost glad to have once again chosen an annual rather than a perennial. There is something to be said for witnessing the entire lifespan of your flowers. As in my little garden, where life and death occur on a somewhat less unwieldy scale, I go back to my roots, the roots of my memories. I find that some have stretched and twisted, some have flowered while others have withered, like the paths I did or did not choose to take. There are many branches I could trace to find my way back to the strong, quiet man who was my Grandpa Bill. I am sad to have lost another flower, but happy for the roots that remain and to which I owe so many parts of my character.
Here is just one of those branches: I’m sitting cross-legged at a long glass coffee table. I am four or five years old. I’ve already completed the ritual steps that go along with being baby-sat by my grandparents, such as rubbing the belly of the Buddha and making a wish, and now I am coloring in one of the Japanese workbooks Grandpa Bill had found somewhere for me. In his nearly century-long lifetime and the not-quite three decades of which I was able to be a part of it, he never told me in so many words that he hoped I would learn Japanese, but every now and then he would take out the workbook and we would sit for as long as my four-year-old attention span lasted and I would repeat the words after him.
“Hana.” (grandpa pointing to his nose)
“Hannah?”(my response)
“Kuchi.” (grandpa pointing to his mouth)
“Coochie?!” (Me giggling)
“Mimi”(grandpa pulling on his ear)
“Me, me!”. (me gesturing to myself)
And the lesson would end when I would grow bored or burst into giggles and affirm, “Watashi wa enpitsu”—I am a pencil.
What is the weight behind three generations, two continents and a coloring book? How many truths and histories pass through our hands like so much water? Abundant, transparent and restorative, a grandparent’s love and knowledge could save our lives if only we paid more attention to it, drinking it down and absorbing it instead of splashing around in what seems like an endless resource that will never run out. But I can only be grateful for those things that I was able to learn from Grandpa during his lifetime. Most of all: Patience.
When you’re hoping or waiting with impatience, a single day can seem like a thousand years. Einstein joked about this in his playful explanation of relativity, saying that an hour with a pretty girl seemed like a minute, while unpleasant situations that last for a minute can feel like an hour. The Japanese say, ichi nichi senshÅ«, implying that a single day lived with impatience feels like a thousand autumns. If Grandpa ever lost his patience, he certainly never showed it. His patience was an art, and I mean that literally. From his lovely Bunka embroideries to his delicate origami cigarette wrapper umbrellas, to the soda-can wind chimes that decorated their yard, every aspect of Grandpa’s personality evinced his gift for accepting time for what it was, never hurrying it along, never challenging its pace, never wasting a moment. My grandfather waited a long time to marry my grandmother—a box of love letters from his time at Fort Sam Houston serves as a reminder of this. And after fifty years of marriage, she once urged him at the dinner table to repeat what he had said to her one morning. “Bill, tell them what you said to me this morning”. And, in his quiet way as always, he very calmly said, “Oh, you know, I just said, ‘Every day I love you more.’”
Grandpa has again waited with patience and grace to be reunited with the person he continued to love more and more throughout his life. If to him, each minute that he has waited has felt like an hour, or each day a thousand autumns, he never let on to this. He held onto life with strength, kindness, love, and a wonderful sense of humor until the very end, but I know that he was, again as so many years ago, waiting for the day when Grandma would take his hand.
As for us, I’m sorry that our garden has one less flower but rest at ease knowing that our sky is lit by one more star.